Today the cleaning lady had to get my out of bed. I haven't been sleeping well lately. So I've been sleeping in. I went out to get breakfast and I think I was ripped off by 10 Baht. But that's like... less than 30 cents. Whatever I guess. It's just the principle of it. I'm always amazed at how many Thai men will stop and ask if I need a taxi ride. I'm truly grateful to whatever force in the universe of assistance that I've drawn towards me. I know that I will find my way to the right person for me. I know that he can tell something is coming to him soon too. I probably sound like a total freak that needs to be locked away for saying or thinking that. But it's some sort of deep sense I have that something is going to happen. And for some reason I know he feels it too.
My whole life it's like I've been in this dark room. A huge gigantic dark room. I've wandered in this room never finding a door or window or even a wall. So I never felt like it could be any different. This is just life. A big dark room that you wander through mindlessly till you die I guess. I feel like finally I've run into a wall... and it's occurred to me that something is on the other side. I still don't really know where I'm at. But I'm feeling around for a door or some kind of opening. I feel like I've even maybe found a key... but I don't know what to do with it yet. But this key will unlock a door out of here.
I'm very tired and unrested. But I can't sleep. I feel like a waste at the moment. I talked myself out of class all day long, and then still ended up going. I think this is a good sign.
My whole life it's like I've been in this dark room. A huge gigantic dark room. I've wandered in this room never finding a door or window or even a wall. So I never felt like it could be any different. This is just life. A big dark room that you wander through mindlessly till you die I guess. I feel like finally I've run into a wall... and it's occurred to me that something is on the other side. I still don't really know where I'm at. But I'm feeling around for a door or some kind of opening. I feel like I've even maybe found a key... but I don't know what to do with it yet. But this key will unlock a door out of here.
I'm very tired and unrested. But I can't sleep. I feel like a waste at the moment. I talked myself out of class all day long, and then still ended up going. I think this is a good sign.
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